Gabriel, Holy Mass is where heaven and earth come together, in the presence of Christ with all the angels and saints. God wants you there.
Not receiving the Eucharist should NOT be humiliating. I don't when not in a state of grace and look on others who don't with deepest respect. Those who simply go and take regardless -- not so much.
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